ditchin this shit for my tumblr

http://destinationursamajor.tumblr.com/

see ya

miss you, xoxo.

tired eyes/crazy bangs

dear hair/face,

WTF?

xoxo,

linds

let's be real

whoa this is nuts- you're into vintage clothes & jewelry, old photographs (polaroids, especially), you look at everything from an abstract point of view, you have dreams of going to a far away city, all of the sudden you appreciate fine architecture, reminiscing about the past, and think that you should have been born in an earlier decade.  so does everyone else.

all of these things are just fine interests. however, what you're really into is making sure that everyone knows that you're into these things. 

congratulations- you're anything but an individual. 

AMK's mugshot

i want to love you,  pretty young thing. (P.Y.T.).

tuesday to do list:

-microbiology exam, 8AM-9AM

-go to the office downtown

-take a fucking shower(profanity used to display seriousness)

-bookstore to buy justin books

-print out those pictures to send to justin

-gym and run atleast 2 miles

-study for organic chem

-get allie from work at 4:30

-hangout

-study some more

everytime that i get an e-mail and it's not from justin i get a little more upset. it's a mixture of me missing him and me worrying about him. everytime that i send him an email it gets sent back to me saying that it couldn't be delivered-in other words, the navy is bullshit and the email system on his ship is down. atleast that's what i'm assuming, because i know that he is trying to email me, i know that he is. he would never go a whole day-let alone 4 days now without emailing me, he loves me too much for that. therefore, the email on his ship better be down because i swear to whatever god there may be that if something happened to him i would fucking lose it. that's the scary thing about someone being in the military-it's not like you and i where if we don't contact someone for a bit everything is most likely okay and we just don't want to... with justin, if he doesn't email me or call me it's because something is stopping him from doing so-he would never ever just not write me. chances are that he is probably going nuts like i am wondering what the fuck is wrong with the ships email and worrying about me like i'm worrying about him. i wish that i could just know that he is okay. i mean-i know that he is okay, because if he wasn't i'm sure that i'd know somehow. okay lindsey, stop rambling and don't jinx things. " justin is okay, the email is just fucked up, he will write soon." i tell myself everytime that i check my email and there's nothing from him. i'm so fucking sad here without him, and now without even hearing from him. i can survive on emails and rare phone calls and now i'm forcing myself to survive off of thoughts that he's thinking of me, wherever he is. i'm acting like an idiot and re-reading everything he sent to me before the email fucked up. i can't believe that he's gone until october, i can't wait for him to get back. i feel like i'm trapped in some sort of shitty sandra bullock movie where i'm in love with someone and he's in love with me but we just can't get to each other. it's okay for me to be sad, i love my boyfriend and he's not here.

i need to nap because its 5:40AM and i have to get up for class at 6:15

FML.

goodnight,

lonely girl.

yes

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I MISS YOU, Y'OLD ASS 25 YEAR OLD.

and again

also; i miss justin so bad

puppy love

100%

lol senior pics, stfu

almost time for this!!! -courtesy of krauss-

missin this, me snoozin' as usual.

goodnight & do great things (i know you can),

lkd.

this is my boyfriend and he is such an adorable babe. 

i mean just look at him. 

i'm always snoozin'. you can tell that sleep makes me happy due to the peaceful looking smile on my face .

he was so irritated that day because i was taking forever to do everything and fell asleep for i think more than an hour.... whooooops.

happiness.

true love

lol

well somehow the video disconnected so i'm wondering if justin's ever going to hear it and wake up?


aaaaand he just woke up

currently i'm :




but i want to be:
goodnight, bbs.

love,

L

it's way too late

i'm way too awake

justin is way too tired

MEH.

four days until my life starts officially sucking.

there are tons of shitty dudes that get to stay around their shitty girlfriends. yet my awesome boyfriend who is absolutely perfect for me has to float in the ocean for 6 months.

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

**on the brightside; atleast i've found the perfect boyfriend & he'll still be the perfect boyfriend whether he's here with me, in virginia, out to see, or halfway around the world. having something awesome to look forward to definitely helps with the distance/time.

--also, despite depressing blog entries, i'm at 95% hapiness right now, i'm laying in bed (wishing i was sleeping), looking at my beautiful other half (that boyfriend), being cuddled my the most beautiful dog in the whole world (riley baby). there's only one thing that could be better...............that beautiful boy in the flesh.

~~~~ending note: i'm 21 in 2 weeks exactly.

~~~~~~the real ending note: riley seems to be mistaking my laptop for a pillow.

for the record

i am pro-choice for the following reason:

regardless of what i would do when put in the situation, my personal beliefs are just that: my personal beliefs- therefore, i have absolutely no right to force my opinion on anyone else. it's a free country.

the up & ups

god these past few weeks have been awesome, i love my boyfriend. god i love my boyfriend. now i'm diving headfirst into what's bound to be a horrible 6 months without him.

i drove for days today, that doesn't make much sense but whatever.

on a lighter note; here are some things i'd like to share:

seriously.

guilty pleasure

cake wrecks

lol

fuck my life

summer 2009

chicago
nashville/bonnaroo
philadelphia/new york/washington dc
panama city beach

you know, i've been doing a really, really, good job not whining about justin being away because i didn't want him to come back and read this and feel bad.

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but FUCK. i wish the email would work. AT LEAST.

shut up

oh, stop it you guys

natural ghost

DAMN, BOY.

could someone tell me why, three weeks after my surgery, my nose continues to bleed. i tell you what; surgery in your throat sux-if i have to deal with chronic bloody nose i'm going to go insane. its sunday night, well-monday morning and i don't have school tomorrow. awesome. what i do have to do though is buy my books among many other things.
tomorrow will include, but is not limited to; book buying, talking to justin, getting a new tire, catching up in microbiology, lab prep for organic, cleaning, & taking out a hell of a lot of garbage.

i wish someone would just bring me my books so that i could do homework and get stuff done without having to leave the warm comfort of my apartment. it's so cold outside, there's a good amount of snow down here currently, which probably means that the roads are bad, which i hate.

justin is getting ready to go on a month and half underway, which means that he will be out on the ship somewhere in the atlantic and the only means of communication we'll be able to have will be emails whenever he can, which may mean 20 a day, 1 a day, or 1 a week for all i know. god this is going to suck. don't get me wrong, i love all of my friends and am thankful that i have them to talk to, hang out, etc.. but i don't know what i'll do without justin.. i guess i'll have no excuse to not do well in school this semester. who am i kidding? i'll probably slosh around my apartment and watch movies on tv all day/everyday and continue to surf the internet and buy tv series, songs, and movies off of itunes. which is pretty much what my life consists of these past few days.

currently justin is making breakfast. i'm real tired. i don't want today to end.

hahahaha justin this is for you, you prob won't be able to see it unless you're on an actual computer and not your phone.

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as of today i have had the best boyfriend for two months.


:-)

i can honestly say that 15 minutes ago i was in the worst pain that i had ever felt in my entire life. i thought i was okay all day today but then as i was about to fall asleep i guess my pain medication wore off and the pain in my throat and ears made me literally want to die. i tried to swallow the pain medicine and it hurt more than anything i have ever felt before. i ended up sitting on the kitchen floor crying (which hurt to do) for about 10 minutes. hydrocodone is the only thing keeping me from absolute agony. fuck being an adult and having your tonsils and adenoids removed. why couldn't i have gotten it done when i was a child and it would have been easier?

i've been a complete and total waste of space since monday. the only thing that i've done is transfer my body to the couch from my bed, and vice versa. also, due to feeling shitty (which isn't an excuse), i've managed to start a few arguments with my boyfriend as well. which is not a good accomplishment, and exactly what i did not want to do. i wish that i could ask for my money back and put my tonsils back in. well not really-maybe just wish that i didn't have surgery. i hate feeling bad/not being able to do anything/not being able to eat anything(hard times for a fatty), and more than anything i hate that i'm not on the way to virginia right now. the distance is hard-but i knew that it would be going in to this. it's harder than i thought, but i know that it is completely worth it. i look at my life differently now. finishing school isn't even what i think about when i think about my life-i mean obviously i would like to finish school and get a decent job, but more than anything-and i mean absoultely positively more than anything i cannot wait for these next two years to go by and to be in a place in my life where i am totally happy. this includes, but is definitely not limited to; having my own place with justin and riley, having a stable job, being able to do whatever i want, whenever i want. you know, to be quite honest, i would be perfectly happy just knowing that i could see my boyfriend whenever i wanted, being able to call him and say simple things like "hey on your way home could you pick up (insert random thing here)..." god, i want that more than anything. look at me being the typical girl obsessed with her boyfriend that i've always loathed, writing in my blog about him, having pictures of us together on social networking sites. well, i've never been that girl with any relationship that i've been in and i still judge others when they do the same thing. hypocritical i guess. i have never been that girl most likely due to the fact that i have never been this happy in a relationship. i have never felt this love before, i never ever knew that someone so perfect existed, i had no idea that there was someone out there that was made for me, made exactly for me-a perfect fit. think of any positive adjective and that is how i feel right now, that is the status of my life- and that is completely and totally attributed to one person. i wish that everyone could have a chance to feel like this, and i am so lucky that i do. i know that my friends will find the other person that makes them feel complete like this, i know they will-and when they do, i will listen to them talk about how happy they are because of it and i will be genuinely happy for them.
besides the vital need to see my boyfriend, i need to see my friends. it's sucked for days being asked to hang out and me having to say that i cant in fear that my throat would "rupture" or something and bleed all over the place. kelley, molly, and katie: when i feel 100% we are going to hang out all day and enjoy the biggest meal of all history together, because jello just isn't cutting it. allie: when i get back to lexington we are hanging out as well, and you are staying at my apartment for days and you are going to say zany/creepy things on accident all the time because it's what we do.
i have to find a job when i get back to lexington, fuck being employed. i want to lay around all day and night and have everything given to me, but isn't that what everyone really wants? riley is getting big. he's so cute. he's getting neutered on monday, and i'm really worried. i will probably be panicking the entire time that he isn't with me and pampering him when he is home. for some reason his breath has smelled like doritos for a few days, yet he has no access to doritos-nor is there orange residue on or around his mouth. what a strange thing. he's having a dream right now, that is cute too.
speaking of dreams, i think that i don't snore anymore since this surgery. mi madre says that she hasn't heard me yet! i am beyond excited about this, moreso excited that i wont be sick nearly as much. i can't wait to wipe out my computer and restore it to how it was when i got it. complete crap is what it is now.
i'm going to sleep, i think tomorrow i'll chat with justin all day and somewhere in the midst of that i'll go to kroger, then to the hospital to get a prescription refilled, then maybe-just maybe, i'll use some christmas money to get some v-neck t's offline. (the earlier things will of course depend on whether or not my dad deems me fit to leave the house). i think maybe tomorrow i'll attempt to eat something that actually tastes good, maybe some soup?