I am an endangered species.

it's 8am, i'm wide awake and studying until 10:30, then i'm going to ecology & organic, i come home and have a break for about 3 hours, in which i'll be studying, then i have my physics exam.

that babe will be here on friday and i've probably never been this excited in my entire life.
but, as of now my fingers hurt and my eyes aren't focusing. see ya.

monday/wednesday: wake - work - class - eat - study/homework - read - sleep
tuesday/thursday: wake - class - work - class - eat - study/homework - read - sleep
friday - wake - pick up paycheck - work - allie - party
saturday - wake - work - allie- party - sleep
sunday - wake - work - homework/study - eat - read - sleep

this is my life, every week - the same thing, sorry if i've been a bad friend lately, i barely have anytime to relax.

i'm surprisingly more upset about this than i thought i'd be, maybe i'm just being a stupid girl and writing this off too soon. i thought that once you've been hurt the worst, and let me tell you: i've been hurt in the worst ways, that the rest of the times can't be as worse. yeah, i guess nothings as bad as that was, but it's still pretty fucking bad. hurt is hurt no matter what form it's in. i guess it's true that nobody will ever do me as wrong as he did--but that's not because there's no one as shitty, oh i'm sure there's people that are just as shitty--and they're probably pulled towards me by some unseen magnetic force. i mean, the past has only proven that theory to be correct. but nobody will ever do me as bad as he did because i won't let them. this is why i don't want to be too close, it's always too close. atleast i love one thing and it's this city--i've got it bad for this city and i always will. don't expect me to ever come back to northern kentucky. as soon as i finish my undergrad it's straight to philly, then after grad school it's straight to south carolina, or who knows where, all i know is that i want to be around allie, for the rest of my life. sappy? moderately homosexual? not really, she's the only person besides my family that's never ever done me wrong, what do you expect me to do? i feel like you could put my life in some sort of graph and it would start out at the top then around 2006 start slowly dropping until it gets to a certain low, then flat-line, forever.

i've been sleeping since i got home around 7:30, just woke up and i still feel weird. going back to sleep now, goodnight i guess.

i have a strong opinion on nearly everything, however i don't find it necessary to make my opinion public, because i couldn't care less if anyone hears it.

i miss josh, meeeeep.

i am in love with edward, how does this make you feel? i don't care, really.

i've given a lot of thought to my current place in life and it couldn't be any better. well-- i mean besides the absence of a few important people from my daily life, it couldn't get any better. throw molly, katie, josh, and angela into the lexington mix and i've got it made.

i'm on allies computerrrrrr


daaa deee da

if i had to name one thing that i hate it'd be those people that think that everything is always someone elses fault. get a grip, you're in control of your own life. the things that you do/the grades that you get they're all a direct result of a choice that you've made. putting the blame on other people might make you feel better temporarily but in the end you're the only one that controls your life. if you depend only on yourself, then when you get let down you only have yourself to blame.

I take it in stride; One day at a time
If I ask no questions I’ll hear no lies.

i haven't been home in so long that that the feeling of comfort while i'm here is nearly gone. maybe it's not gone, just overcome by the feelings of wanted to be back in lexington with most of my friends, in my room, in my apartment. i can't ever picture myself living at home again. i love my parents, i love my family, i just love living in a place where i dictate what i do and when i do it. i just don't like it up here as much as i used to.