last night was absolutely ridiculous. i say "last night" like we don't do the same things every night. rephrased: my life is absolutely ridiculous. i say and do things that make no sense. the second that words leave my mouth i immediately regret them. to make things worse, or following the trend of this post, more ridiculous, when i was falling asleep i was on the phone with the one that i swore i'd never talk to again.

i'm well aware that the things that i do have no legitimate reasoning, and i tell myself that i'm going to stop, then i don't stop. repetition and habits rule my life, not in a positive way either.